Me and My Crazy Brain.

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Me On a Daily Basis

Figuring this shit out one day at a time.

-me.

I made a promise to myself when Noelle arrived that I’d be SUPER MOM! I mean PTA meetings, soccer practice every Wednesday and Thursday, travel with the team, make lunch everyday, read her bedtime stories every night. Basically everything that I’ve seen on tv. Oh! And still go out with my girlfriends, go to work five days a week, try not to annoy my partner (LOL), go to the gym 3 times a week, meditate and drink my water. She has been here on this earth for six months and I’m thinking to myself WTH WAS I THINKING! LOL

I love this little kid like the air that I breathe. But how on earth does the typical mom do all of the above? We haven’t even begun the crawling stage and I am freaking out about when she hits 6th grade! My anxiety flares up just thinking about it. It blows my mind how time has flown. She smiles when I walk in the room. Kicks and kicks like she’s trying to jump out of a paper bag. Loves to eat (like mommy). Meanwhile, deep inside, mommy is FREAKING OUT!

I am the kind of person that has not discovered how to create “balance” in her life. I’m an all or nothing kind of gal. When I am into something, I AM IN IT and it’s hard to get me out. Being a mommy is the biggest role in the world to me; I think about her every minute of the day. It can be a bit overwhelming. I want nothing but the best for her. So, working my eight hours, running home or to my families house to pick her up, and getting in my bed at night is my everyday routine. My brain hasn’t even allowed me to venture off into other worlds, like GOING OUT FOR A DRINK or taking a walk by myself or even replying to my group chat messages. My brain won’t allow me to. This is my daily struggle; getting back to me. Allowing myself to not just be a mommy, but be Brittany as well.

I’m trying.

-Signed,

The Perfectly Imperfect Mommy

Meet Brittany: The Perfectly Imperfect Mommy

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Mommy and Noelle (4 months) at Pumpkin Fest 2019 in Street, MD

June 1, 2019 at 6:41 pm, my life changed.

After 46 hours in agonizing labor, seeing her face completely blew my mind. Becoming a mom has been the most beautiful, terrifying, gratifying, nerve-wrecking, crazy, rewarding experience. In my 32 years on this earth, I’ve never felt more complete, yet petrified at the same time. Experiencing all of this, while also becoming new version of myself and taking care of this new little human-being! At the end of my seemingly endless day, with my “I WAITED 9 MONTHS FOR THIS” glass of wine in hand, I whisper to myself “WTF AM I DOING?!” Managing being a young professional, having some sort of social life, balancing a relationship and then coming home to wipe a poopy butt with the most beautiful smile can be nerve wrecking. Like my aunt said, there is no book that teaches you how to be a mom, let alone be a mom and have a life. I am creating my own version of mommyhood (yes, I made this word up). Having fun, creating my new life, making mistakes and learning from them.

I created this space to share my stories, my struggles, my wins and this incredible journey that I have embarked on during my self-discovery, my new family life, all at once. Ladies, we want to be the perfect wife/girlfriend, woman, daughter, business professional and mother but it does not exist! And that’s ok! Be your funny, mess of a self and be ok with it. This is where I am now. This is for all of the perfectly imperfect mommies..